Saturday, August 1, 2009
Today I am. I'm in the mood to paint, but I don't feel inspired or successful. My head hurts. I pulled out this painting that I started in February. When I started it, I was inspired. I had a concept. I sketched the composition, I textured the whole canvas, and covered it with color in one day. Then, I don't know what happened, but I think I didn't really like what I saw; it seemed garish, so I put it aside because often, when I do that, I come up with a solution. I thought I knew what I wanted to do to it today, but I'm so frustrated. I'd added some turquoise and some green, and I hated it! Next, I decided to go over all the colors, except the pinks, yellow and oranges in bright red because it was just looking muddy and gaudy at the same time, if that's possible. Here's what it looked like in February.
Don't like that either. Maybe this whole thing was just a learning experience; maybe I'm not meant to finish this one, but it's really hard for me to give up on something. Maybe I just don't know when to quit. Anyway, now I'm going to let the red dry, and I'm going to go take a shower and hope that this thing miraculously improves while I'm gone. We'll see.